Intervention

All my life I have had this inner struggle. It's called caring too much about my appearance. You can ask anyone in my family and they will tell you this is so. Ask any of my sisters, they will most likely tell you that I spent more time in front of the mirror than all of them combined. Sadly (not for them) they are all so beautiful that you probably couldn't even tell.

Well today I had an experience and I am calling for a change. I had to get my drivers license renewed today. I woke up late like usual. By the time I got out of the shower, I had a decision to make. Go to class or get ready? I decided to get ready because after all, I would have to get my picture taken for my new license. I would later realize, this was not the best choice. The time came and I went to the Drivers License Division. It was my turn to have my picture taken. I sat down and smiled. The guy didn't do anything so I stopped and then FLASH. He took the picture and I wasn't even paying attention. I had another decision. Should I ask him to retake it, or should I sit down? This might surprise some of you, but I sat down. I thought for one hour how I could have my picture retaken. There was a huge line so I pretty much had decided I was just going to have to deal with the picture they took. They called my number and I went to finish things up. I was highly tempted to ask for a new picture but I didn't. They printed off my temporary one and it was as bad as I thought it would be. I am stuck with this quarter smiling, mug shot until I have to renew my license again. I'm sure I will cringe everytime someone asks to see my ID. This is how I have to remember myself. Why did I spend my time getting ready? A wet ponytail would not have hurt this picture at all. Part of me still has a pit in my stomach when I think of the picture, but another part of me is relieved that I didn't ask for a retake. Today, I took my first step on my road to recovery.

Entropy

Ever heard of that? Well if you have then you know that it is the concept that nature tends to go from order to disorder. The other day in one of my classes, we were talking about this concept and how it is nearly impossible for nature to go from disorder to order. It would be like baking a cookie and then trying to separate the ingredients out again. Not going to happen. Then my teacher said something that really struck me. She said that the atonement is the answer to entropy. It is only through the atonement that we can be made whole again. No matter how disordered our life is, through the atonement, we can put it back together. I am so grateful for a Savior who was willing to suffer for me so that I can be made whole.

ordinary

"God must have loved the ordinary events because he made so many of them. "-Abraham Lincoln

I read this quote in one of my textbooks today and I loved it. It was such a good reminder to me to find joy in everyday life instead of thinking the joy will come later. I always think I will be happier when I have a dishwasher or when I have more money or when I am graduated, but I am so blessed to have all I have today. I am blessed to have a husband to feed and an apartment to clean and clothes to wash and dishes to do and a chance to get an education and feet that can walk me to school everyday and furniture to dust and I could go on and on. I need to be better at finding joy in the ordinary because like Abe said, there are so many of them.

B day

Today is Brandon's 24th birthday!

I am soooooooooo glad he was born!

Hobbies: FISHING, soccer, watching football, anything sports, spending time with yours truly.

Favorite T.V. shows: football, ESPN (if we had it), Simpsons :(, Myth Busters as of late

Favorite Book: Les Miserables

Favorite Candy: Gummy Bears

Future Endeavors: Dental School
Best qualities: HANDSOME, smart, funny, easygoing, THOUGHTFUL, kind, HARDWORKING, the list could go on and on. He's really got it all.
Biggest Fan: ME

I love you Brandon! Happy Birthday!

one.

Today marks one year since I married the love of my life and my best friend.

I never knew marriage could be so great.

It gets better every single day.

I feel so blessed to be married to Brandon.

I love him more every day and as time passes, I realize how much I need him in my life.

Although things are not always easy, and not everything has gone as planned,

this has been the best year of my life to date.

Marrying Brandon is the best decision I have ever made.

Congraduation

Yesterday Brandon finished college at the B-Y-U.

He has worked so hard.

I am so proud of him.

But also a little jealous of him.

But mostly SO Proud!

What the???

 I have been waiting to post for a long time but lately it seems like all I ever do is school related and that's not really post worthy but yesterday I finally thought of something. This is completely random but I just think it is so weird.
So yesterday I got an email from my boss informing me that one of my co-workers had been hit by a car the previous night so she would not be coming into work. My co-worker was fine and walked away without even a bruise. She was just a little shaken up and sore. Now the reason I am blogging about this is because this is not the first time I have heard of BYU students being hit by cars. In fact, this is about the 5th person I have heard of being hit by a car and to top it all off, I have personally witnessed 2 people get hit by a car. Luckily none of them have been seriously injured.
This is why I am so careful crossing the street and why everytime Brandon walks to school, I make sure I tell him to watch for cars, like he is my child or something. Hearing these stories really does nothing for my nerves. I am sure by now that there have been enough students that have been hit by cars to give us some pretty solid statistically significant data. Moral of the story: If you ever come to Provo, please watch for cars.