Update

I am not really sure where to even begin. We had a fabulous summer which explains why I haven't blogged at all. I will try to do this in the least words possible with the most pictures possible because Libby informed me she doesn't like to look at my blog because it is just "words."  Summer started out with a move followed shortly by another move. We both worked full-time and I took classes for the first part of the summer. It is safe to say that I hope to never have to work full-time, go to school full-time and move twice in the same semester ever again. It was just plain exhausting but so worth it. School ended mid June which is when the fun began I guess. Brandon already blogged about our fishing trip on the Green River which was amazing. Our next vacation was to Bryce Canyon with Brandon's family.We went hiking in Bryce Canyon a couple of times, hiked to a waterfall, went fishing a lot (Brandon says we caught 50 (post edit I meant to say it was easily 100) fish and by we I mostly mean Brandon, his dad, and his brothers), played games, went four wheeling, had water fights, Brandon got in a cow pie fight with his cousin and got nailed in the face, and mostly just had a lot of fun. We are so glad his family has this tradition!

 

After Panguitch, we headed up to Flaming Gorge with my family. In flaming gorge we went boating as much as the weather would permit, went cliff jumping, we floated the Green River (my personal favorite even though it POURED rain on us), the boys went fishing (this is probably the only time in my entire life that I have not been fishing in Flaming Gorge), we tried to have the annual game of Psychic (another post edit, it is actually called Psychiatrist) but that flamed out fast, we ate (another personal favorite), watched movies, listened to Thomas' latest hit, "This is a cabin, not a trailer" too many times, and relaxed. We especially enjoyed the new "cabin" that my Grandparents got this year.

Other noteworthy events recently that I don't have any pictures of include seeing the Lion King with my family at the Capital Theater, going to the BYU football game with Brandon's family last night, birthdays, birthdays, and more birthdays, Libby's baptism, Bear Lake with our friends the Hope's, and I am sure I am forgetting a lot. All in all, it was a great summer and we are loving life right now. I am especially excited that come this winter, I will be done with school! If I don't post until then, just know it is because school is consuming my life.

The Green River

Of the many fishing trips I have gone on over the years this trip was one of the best.  Lauren got me a guided fishing trip on the Green River for graduation, and it sure was "amazing."  Here are some pictures:

First fish of the day.  A little rainbow trout.

This brown trout was only one of the TWO fish that I had hooked at the same time.  The brown trout had taken the fly on top of the water.  While bringing this brown trout in my rod bent even more as a rainbow trout jumped out of the water, which had taken the second fly!  I worked both trout up to the side of the boat, but as the guide netted the brown trout it broke the line leading to the second fly and the rainbow got away. 

This is me hooking a fish in a stretch of the river where we caught at least five fish, one right after the other. 

One fat little rainbow!

This was a hybrid cutthroat rainbow.

Lauren caught a monster white fish, which we had to net while the boat was moving to keep it from breaking the line!

This was one of the two fish we caught fishing a dry fly during a yellow sally hatch.

 

I sure love this girl!  Here is a picture of us right before we ate lunch.  Thanks for the awesome trip Lauren!!

Thought

I am a little hesitant to post this,  number 1 because I am not a mother and number 2 because it is just my opinion and I know my opinion is not always right. In my major, I have the unique opportunity of taking classes that talk a lot about the roles of mothers and fathers so it is something I think often about. Yesterday in Sunday school, we were talking about the divine qualities of mothers and I had this thought that has deeply impressed me.

At the beginning of the semester, one of my teachers told us that she had "found" herself and that she had found what her purpose was in life through her education and job experiences. This made me think about my own experience and I felt kind of bad because I have not felt that I know my individual purpose yet. I love my major and I have loved studying family and interior design, but I just don't feel like it is my purpose to be a "designer" or a "family scientist." I know you must be thinking I chose the wrong major, but I assure you, I did not.

Yesterday, I was thinking how the world would say that in order for women to "find" themselves, they would need to look outside of the home. It seems like it is through education and through having a career that a woman can find who she truly is. This got me thinking about  my own education and job (Not that my job is a career by all means). I was thinking about how I have learned skills and gained knowledge at school and at work but I don't feel like I have learned everything about myself that there is to know.

In Sunday school as we talked about the divine qualities that women have and their ability to nuture, I thought that I do not feel like I know this part of myself yet. I get glimpses of it every once in a while, but I do not think I will fully understand this ability until I have the opportunity to be a mother. I thought about my own mother and the way she is able to comfort and love her children. Over the weekend Brandon and I went to visit Mattie, Scott, and Jonah and Brandon pointed out to me how he noticed the way that Mattie was able to nurture Jonah when he fell down. So I also thought about Mattie. I thought about the change I have seen in her since she has become a mother and how she has developed those nurturing qualities.

This has been a long wind-up but basically my thought was that it is through motherhood, whenever that happens for me,  that I will be able to "find" myself as my teacher did. I cannot think of any job or any field of study that will allow me to develop the divine and inherent qualities of nurturing better than motherhood.

Exciting News

I just registered for my last semester of college and it feels SO good.  I've been looking forward to this moment since I started college. HALLELUJAH!!!!!

inside out

So you know the saying, opposites attract? Well it surely must be true because today when Brandon got home from work he told me that he went half the day at work and one of his co-workers said, "Is there a reason you have your shirt on inside out?" To top it off, he had a big rooster tail in his hair from sleeping on the bus. I care too much, he doesn't care enough. I guess we should meet on the middle on this one.

Intervention

All my life I have had this inner struggle. It's called caring too much about my appearance. You can ask anyone in my family and they will tell you this is so. Ask any of my sisters, they will most likely tell you that I spent more time in front of the mirror than all of them combined. Sadly (not for them) they are all so beautiful that you probably couldn't even tell.

Well today I had an experience and I am calling for a change. I had to get my drivers license renewed today. I woke up late like usual. By the time I got out of the shower, I had a decision to make. Go to class or get ready? I decided to get ready because after all, I would have to get my picture taken for my new license. I would later realize, this was not the best choice. The time came and I went to the Drivers License Division. It was my turn to have my picture taken. I sat down and smiled. The guy didn't do anything so I stopped and then FLASH. He took the picture and I wasn't even paying attention. I had another decision. Should I ask him to retake it, or should I sit down? This might surprise some of you, but I sat down. I thought for one hour how I could have my picture retaken. There was a huge line so I pretty much had decided I was just going to have to deal with the picture they took. They called my number and I went to finish things up. I was highly tempted to ask for a new picture but I didn't. They printed off my temporary one and it was as bad as I thought it would be. I am stuck with this quarter smiling, mug shot until I have to renew my license again. I'm sure I will cringe everytime someone asks to see my ID. This is how I have to remember myself. Why did I spend my time getting ready? A wet ponytail would not have hurt this picture at all. Part of me still has a pit in my stomach when I think of the picture, but another part of me is relieved that I didn't ask for a retake. Today, I took my first step on my road to recovery.

Entropy

Ever heard of that? Well if you have then you know that it is the concept that nature tends to go from order to disorder. The other day in one of my classes, we were talking about this concept and how it is nearly impossible for nature to go from disorder to order. It would be like baking a cookie and then trying to separate the ingredients out again. Not going to happen. Then my teacher said something that really struck me. She said that the atonement is the answer to entropy. It is only through the atonement that we can be made whole again. No matter how disordered our life is, through the atonement, we can put it back together. I am so grateful for a Savior who was willing to suffer for me so that I can be made whole.